Tuesday, December 29, 2009

tomorrow would have been the day

Dec. 30...... Now, I know that only 5% of babies show up on their due date... but regardless, the date that will always echo in my heart will be Dec. 30.

I still believe all that I said I believed here and here and here and here.... even more so...

I also believe that this hole in my heart is healing... not because there is a new life growing inside of me right now... but because my God is in the healing business! My heart would be healing regardless of whether or not I was pregnant.

My precious husband gave me a necklace for Christmas with a teardrop shaped Blue Topaz and a small diamond.... the diamond is my birthstone (convenient?? yes.) ... the blue topaz, the birthstone for the month of December. I will not forget my precious first child. We haven't met yet little one - but we will one day....

11 comments:

DeeDee said...

Love you Julia...
and I will hold that grandbaby one day too :)

Unknown said...

and I will hold my little niece or nephew one day as well. I love ya big little sis!

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Stephanie said...

What a thoughtful gift from your husband.

Thinking of you,
stephanie@metropolitanmama.net

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